I'll give it a try

I’ll be honest, I didn’t have a good experience in the galleries when I started exhibiting my art.
Most of the times it required an explanation that I couldn’t really give. This art needs to be felt because the energy that is being channeled into it isn’t quite from the 3D world, it goes way beyond. How do I explain that being a total foreigner, with no public experience and self-doubts? Believe me, there was plenty of reasons for me to hide away for a while….

I might be early to those who can’t feel it just yet. That’s ok. Salvador Dali was not perceived until certain age as well. I can do it again utilising the old experience.

I do leave little breadcrumbs for the ones who are just starting their journey of opening up to their true nature - I produced the whole book filled with guiding lights, little camps to relay in-between transitions and quantum jumps etc. I’m not there to be someone who tells people something, I’m there so that they FEEL AGAIN!

LOVE & LIFE NEED TO BE FELT, NOT THOUGHT OF.

Ink on paper, A3
Original artwork - available by enquiry

New Chapter

There are moments in life when creation no longer waits for permission. It simply arrives — as though it has always been here, quietly waiting for you to be ready.

This is where I stand now: at the opening of a new chapter.

For five years, life has turned me inside out and back again. What felt like endings were in truth beginnings, and what felt like loss was only space being cleared for something larger to move through. In the silence between brushstrokes and sentences, I began to listen differently — and what I heard became both a book and a new body of artwork.

These two streams — painting and writing — are not separate, but one. The words and the images are companions, each carrying frequencies that speak in their own ways, yet both opening the same door: a door to resonance, to remembrance, to the subtle currents of the soul.

This chapter is not about striving, but about offering. Not about fitting into galleries or categories, but about creating spaces — Tuning Chambers — where material and metaphysical can meet, where we can enter together and feel what cannot be spoken.

I call this a new chapter because it carries a different rhythm. It does not chase. It does not doubt. It simply is. And in that presence, I invite you to join me: to read, to see, to listen, to walk with me as these works unfold into the world.

The road ahead is unwritten, but it is luminous.

And this is only the beginning.

— Polina | ARTDOBRO

P.S.: The road ahead is unwritten, but it is luminous. And this is only the beginning.

If you feel called to walk alongside this unfolding, you can:

✨ explore my art and writings here on www.artdobro.com

✨ follow my journey on Instagram @artdobro

✨ or join my Telegram channel for updates and reflections: @thepeacefulearthwarrior

The book is still unpublished, but its spirit is already alive on these pages. You are welcome to step into it early, to read, to feel, and to witness as it comes into form.

I'm on YouTube! - The Peaceful Earth Warrior

Share, Like, Subscribe but most importantly - watch it yourself. I’m not doing it for nothing again, those are the exercises and information that gives you strength, power over your own life, training you to navigate your own reality because you don’t want to be woke anymore. Nobody does. It’s your life and you should be capable of feeling it all!

I created YouTube channel on the day and posted 2 videos straight explaining why i need it etc, next day I received a message that i need to teach you grounding, i then told people about my book but that video was a bit longer so not a lot of views there but that’s okay, not everyone needs to go deep and meaningful with me together so I’m not worried.

I do short videos so that the attention stays in place and some explanations of human emotions which tend to overwhelm you and how to deal with those :)

So far I enjoy doing it and I like that they’re short as I don’t have to do much editing so the pressure is at an absolute minimum which is very nice to feel. It comes from the heart and hopefully benefits you guys.

Death of old self

Hello from the other side!

It happened the day before yesterday when I was trying to get myself back to life after experiencing all sorts of things during the past few days. I was doing a heavy breath Yoga and was trying to release all this pain in my chest…I usually meditate in the end of the sequence to relax my body completely and let go of everything that doesn’t serve me at this point.

This time it was different. I’ve been invited to my own space (I’ve got sort of a castle but not a castle in the astral realm and it’s got an open top space - as it doesn’t rain in the astral realm it was a good idea to create it to be able to learn from different spirits).

All of a sudden i see my old self right in front of me, tired, exhausted, wanting to let go of all the struggles - this was an invitation to take the learnings and release the old self… I didn’t feel like ego death that I’ve experienced before, it felt more like a release.

After this my spirit team appeared and said that now its fully my body and i can leave my life in peace and make the human world a better place with all my creations as there is a lot of beauty in them and they resonate a lot of energy which this world needs. I couldn’t even cry, i felt like a big part of me just died…

Instructions for the next few days were to let it settle which I’m experiencing now. Within this I perceive life better in present, there is no nudge to go down the rabbit hole again like it always was, I am here and I am a full being now with higher self integrated into my body.

Stay tuned, i guess..

P.s.: we had an event at work yesterday and the administrator of the restaurant felt my shift and sent me a long message this morning how good he felt charged up with my energy. He got stuck in my world till good 3 am and wrote a poem in the end! So i do inspire people and it’s very good to know. Now i’ve been shown spaces in London where I could put my paintings, i just need to speak to some people and i guess it could be possible :) Would you show up on the exhibition if I make one in London this year?

By the way, please join my telegram channel @Thepeacefulwarrior where I document all those things.

Press Y

You know, I’m really trying not to want to die and it doesn’t come easy. As someone who is constantly people pleasing I have no energy for myself, worst - I don’t know when i start and other people end. A typical people pleaser, a psychologist would say… however - i’ve been there too and psychologists were doing all sorts of tests with me and figured i have 6 schemer personalities which could become all friends if I learn about them. When insurance stopped paying for my psychologist i was on the 3rd or 4th schemer so i never learnt what’s next and it’s only my problem… I went into an investigation mode called Press Y because to me, if something isn’t working you need to first find out why it isn’t working. Here we go…

I was hoping to get an eye test done today and yet I was late by around 10 mins due to traffic jams and parking - rejection straight away, moved it to tomorrow. fine.

I went to the fabric shop because i really want to wear long wool skirt and I can’t find it anywhere.. You’d be surprised byt the cost of fabric is £17.99 per meter and if you need 4 it gets to £80 + zip (£6) and maybe a thread of the same burgundy colour = around £100. ‘I don’t have them. Not for this’, I’m thinking.

Okay, I still want to do something pleasant for myself, went to Fenwick to take a look at the skirts there - 100 trousers - 1 shitty skirt for £55 made of recycled polyester. (Same polyester costed £6.99 per meter in the shop). I’m very confused at this point. My partner said that this is fast fashion and this is why… I went to look further and dresses from recycled polyester were £199/259 with threads coming out on the wrong places. PRESS Y!

So things in the world are going upside down as prices are raising for no fucking reason (at least on clothes, why polyester dress costs this much i have no clue, it was some random unknown brand, not Chloé or even All Saints), they suggest women to grow balls because all of the trousers are either leather or jeans and skirts are all minis, there is no way people could earn more in those circumstances where taxes are imposed for no reason and bills are going up for the same, wait,….NO REASON! And we are surprised that charity shops are so popular! Where on Earth should I take a reason to live if it’s like this everywhere?

I went home and i thought I’d paint and this would be something i would do for myself but so far I’ve done laundry. dishes and poored myself a mug of tomato soup and went to write this. Now I have an hour to collapse into the painting because then I need to go and take a look at the piano that someone wants to buy for themselves. Do you see what I’m talking about? I live like I’m dead already, what is the point of believing in myself and what it’s like - believing in yourself - I never learnt. As someone raised in Russia I’ve been prompt to make sure everyone is okay - i have to admit, this job is done 5 star. The other side of the Moon is now on fire and a recent new low was me asking my partner to end my life which i couldn’t believe i was saying it but i was.

I’ve been experiencing this for good 7-10 years now and I usually force myself to go very deep inside, cry it all out etc but at this point i don’t see a point. I’m honestly just speechless, i don’t even sing and i really like it but i simply can’t, my voice doesn’t operate on the same scale, body itself is in the huuuuuge saving mode and my head just doesn’t stop being swollen. Well, i booked an eye test for myself again tomorrow, maybe i’ll do something for myself and feel better but so far I’m thinking of finishing the book and… see what happens. I’m very tired of living like this and i understand the implications of suicide but again, one of my friends crossed to the other side last year and there is not much that changed on this side. My family wouldn’t even know, it would just be another story of a depressed person finishing like that, why not. And my body will be cremated here so my ashes can beautifully be drizzled into the La Manche from the cliffs of Dover…

I’m not sure I want to die but it does feel like it would be a big relief.. But i so don’t want to get back into the body again, i’d better do it all now and go for good so I’m not sure i want to die but something defo needs to change. Not wanting to die is another form of living, i guess, i’ll try that for a bit and see if it works…