That was my conclusion from the trip to the mountains which i saw for the first time in 10 years…didn’t realise how long it’s been until i got there and the amount of energy i got supplied there just by being present, breathing the air, skiing, paragliding (which I love and I don’t get to do it often but i clearly should), spending time with my newly-connected family just supported the baseline i was carving our 3 weeks ago.
I had to quit several draining relationships which wouldn’t let me enjoy my own presence which was very important to do. Sometimes we think that we need to be kind to someone just because they count as family but genuinely we don’t owe them shit. The way they treated me was a silent emotionally unavailable environment where I always had to do something for them to even notice my existence and whoever they are it doesn’t matter at all. They could be the closest people for one period of your life but then when you find your own balance you notice what was draining this whole time and God i wish i could see it before but I just became a victime of a carefully constructed illusion. Now I understand and if there is something that they try to make me do i now say “I’m sorry but I can’t help you in this, I’ve got too much on my own plate” - Booom! Fucking corporate answer innit yet i’ve got balls now to put it this way.
I had to put a huge multilayered boundary in my field for my fire to grow in safety. I can not sustain the storm that they do without this boundary and it’s a pity that it came down to that but I have to do it for me, out of self respect and out of love towards my own present. And that’s how I finally got to neutrality presence. I can see clearly and I don’t have to pull myself sideways to satisfy someone’s need even though I love them.
Stay in neutrality, stay present, and you will be free <3
I love you
Polina Artvel
Rest First, Project Second.
That’s the moto I need to adopt now.
I’ve done the whole review of my life yesterday as it was unbearable to experience the in-between states again. My mind kept spiralling back to people’s expectations over my life so I decided it was time to do the actual review of where I got to.
To my surprise, the whole thing took me about 3 hours, a lot of tears and a new song in the end of it… called Planet Earth (which i will be working on and hopefully it will reach your lovely ears).
One of my friends said “Be careful, reviews like that can get you out!” and they surely can unless you have experience of disassembling all of yourself many times to adapt to the new life challenges….
Overall I had 8 big Life reshuffles to date - not counting the small adjustments, only where my identity was recalibrated to new frequencies - which is a lot for a 30 year old. Technically I had to shape shift every 3.75 years of my life which amazes me now as I look back but that was the main reason why my mind couldn’t settle in the current life. It’s diametrically opposite to the life of shape shifter. It’s calm, there are no fires to fight, no energy flood is happening, sun is shining and birds are singing so I was battling the suspiciousness of it all for a while until i thought “maybe i don’t have to brace anymore?”, “what if I finally earned my peace?”… I’m telling you, once you;ve done a review like that you seriously start wondering - is survival over? and then listen to silence whispering a quite “YES!!!” - that was the moment when the song came in.
Gosh, it was worth setting up this whole situation just to realise that my own judgement about myself is totally positive so I practically carved myself out a new baseline frequency to start the new chapter from but first…
…rest :)
If I am to begin the new chapter in peace it can not be rushed… there is a lot of love and light in it and I would like to preserve this beauty whilst it matures for sharing :)
With Love,
Polina Arntvel (< and I embraced my new identity, as you can see - the maiden surname stays in my passport safe and sound and the new surname is supporting it from the outside :)
I'll give it a try
I’ll be honest, I didn’t have a good experience in the galleries when I started exhibiting my art.
Most of the times it required an explanation that I couldn’t really give. This art needs to be felt because the energy that is being channeled into it isn’t quite from the 3D world, it goes way beyond. How do I explain that being a total foreigner, with no public experience and self-doubts? Believe me, there was plenty of reasons for me to hide away for a while….
I might be early to those who can’t feel it just yet. That’s ok. Salvador Dali was not perceived until certain age as well. I can do it again utilising the old experience.
I do leave little breadcrumbs for the ones who are just starting their journey of opening up to their true nature - I produced the whole book filled with guiding lights, little camps to relay in-between transitions and quantum jumps etc. I’m not there to be someone who tells people something, I’m there so that they FEEL AGAIN!
LOVE & LIFE NEED TO BE FELT, NOT THOUGHT OF.
Ink on paper, A3
Original artwork - available by enquiry
New Chapter
There are moments in life when creation no longer waits for permission. It simply arrives — as though it has always been here, quietly waiting for you to be ready.
This is where I stand now: at the opening of a new chapter.
For five years, life has turned me inside out and back again. What felt like endings were in truth beginnings, and what felt like loss was only space being cleared for something larger to move through. In the silence between brushstrokes and sentences, I began to listen differently — and what I heard became both a book and a new body of artwork.
These two streams — painting and writing — are not separate, but one. The words and the images are companions, each carrying frequencies that speak in their own ways, yet both opening the same door: a door to resonance, to remembrance, to the subtle currents of the soul.
This chapter is not about striving, but about offering. Not about fitting into galleries or categories, but about creating spaces — Tuning Chambers — where material and metaphysical can meet, where we can enter together and feel what cannot be spoken.
I call this a new chapter because it carries a different rhythm. It does not chase. It does not doubt. It simply is. And in that presence, I invite you to join me: to read, to see, to listen, to walk with me as these works unfold into the world.
The road ahead is unwritten, but it is luminous.
And this is only the beginning.
— Polina | ARTDOBRO
P.S.: The road ahead is unwritten, but it is luminous. And this is only the beginning.
If you feel called to walk alongside this unfolding, you can:
✨ explore my art and writings here on www.artdobro.com
✨ follow my journey on Instagram @artdobro
✨ or join my Telegram channel for updates and reflections: @thepeacefulearthwarrior
The book is still unpublished, but its spirit is already alive on these pages. You are welcome to step into it early, to read, to feel, and to witness as it comes into form.
I'm on YouTube! - The Peaceful Earth Warrior
Share, Like, Subscribe but most importantly - watch it yourself. I’m not doing it for nothing again, those are the exercises and information that gives you strength, power over your own life, training you to navigate your own reality because you don’t want to be woke anymore. Nobody does. It’s your life and you should be capable of feeling it all!
I created YouTube channel on the day and posted 2 videos straight explaining why i need it etc, next day I received a message that i need to teach you grounding, i then told people about my book but that video was a bit longer so not a lot of views there but that’s okay, not everyone needs to go deep and meaningful with me together so I’m not worried.
I do short videos so that the attention stays in place and some explanations of human emotions which tend to overwhelm you and how to deal with those :)
So far I enjoy doing it and I like that they’re short as I don’t have to do much editing so the pressure is at an absolute minimum which is very nice to feel. It comes from the heart and hopefully benefits you guys.